Today's spotlight shines brightly on the talent of Pushcart-nominated poet, Jared Povanda! It's an honor to feature his poems, "Via Dolorosa" and "Burning Party" (with thanks and first publish credits to Stone Circle Review, and Eunoia Review, respectively). Thank you, Jared, for sharing your words.
Via Dolorosa
Christmas Eve has come again, and I kneel
under stained glass, under Simon of Cyrene bearing
Jesus’ cross on his thin back, and I wonder if anyone has ever
licked him there--
between Simon’s shoulders, up his spine, tongue a pine bough,
a path of salt and piety longer than the road to Calvary.
I wonder if Simon had ever kissed Jesus on the mouth before
abiding the weight of agony across his shoulders,
loss upending the secret tenderness he
carried inside himself like a second heart, and
I wonder if God has made me wrong
in my wondering of these things, but it’s snowing outside,
flakes as light and small as pennyroyal,
the world suddenly perfect
filigree on the cover of some browning book
covered by feet of silent snow;
stillness bestowed by a nimble God.
Look: a line of footsteps on the outside walk. Look:
whole forests of ice outside the church window,
fishers and nightingales, the final crack
of fragrant branches weighed by leaden white.
under stained glass, under Simon of Cyrene bearing
Jesus’ cross on his thin back, and I wonder if anyone has ever
licked him there--
between Simon’s shoulders, up his spine, tongue a pine bough,
a path of salt and piety longer than the road to Calvary.
I wonder if Simon had ever kissed Jesus on the mouth before
abiding the weight of agony across his shoulders,
loss upending the secret tenderness he
carried inside himself like a second heart, and
I wonder if God has made me wrong
in my wondering of these things, but it’s snowing outside,
flakes as light and small as pennyroyal,
the world suddenly perfect
filigree on the cover of some browning book
covered by feet of silent snow;
stillness bestowed by a nimble God.
Look: a line of footsteps on the outside walk. Look:
whole forests of ice outside the church window,
fishers and nightingales, the final crack
of fragrant branches weighed by leaden white.
Burning Party
I’m tired, and I wish I had more money for books
about people who are tired and wished they had
more money for books.
My chest is on fire from acid reflux,
rarely from excitement, but I’m still breathing.
I’m working on celebrating all these little victories:
I didn’t fall asleep on my keyboard today.
I didn’t cry over my health insurance.
I didn’t stop.
“Where is my niche?” I often ask myself when I feel like this.
Where is the little nook where I can press myself
into the walls like clean laundry plugging leaks?
Candy melting on the stove is for burning, not sweetness,
but why can’t I have a burning party?
Why can’t I strike match after match until
the absence of light feels as alien as I do?
about people who are tired and wished they had
more money for books.
My chest is on fire from acid reflux,
rarely from excitement, but I’m still breathing.
I’m working on celebrating all these little victories:
I didn’t fall asleep on my keyboard today.
I didn’t cry over my health insurance.
I didn’t stop.
“Where is my niche?” I often ask myself when I feel like this.
Where is the little nook where I can press myself
into the walls like clean laundry plugging leaks?
Candy melting on the stove is for burning, not sweetness,
but why can’t I have a burning party?
Why can’t I strike match after match until
the absence of light feels as alien as I do?
Jared Povanda is a writer, poet, and freelance editor from upstate New York. He also edits for the literary journal Bulb Culture Collective. He has been nominated for the Pushcart Prize and multiple times for both Best of the Net and Best Microfiction, and published in numerous literary journals including Wigleaf, The Citron Review, and Fractured Literary. You can find him online @JaredPovanda, jaredpovandawriting.wordpress.com, and in the Poets & Writers Directory.